Journal Entry (Pink One) 7-20-2014....
"So why write today? Because I began the day in a very comfortable place. I wanted to share with my friends and loved ones.
I wanted to lay down enough breadcrumbs so that everyone who read about where I was could get there...if they wanted to get there.
AND LATER..when I have forgotten the way there myself...I can read this and find my way there again also.
Breadcrumbs.....In the Pre-Dawn stillness I sometimes stand in the wet grass as the tiny birds rustle about in the bushes. As they tune up their voices to begin their morning songs. The cool breeze gently waves the worn summer leaves, leaves which are happy for rest before the hot day that comes.
I am exceedingly joyous just to breathe, like the leaves....in this moment, forgetful to all the rest of the world and its sorrow."
....following the MH17 Crash News of 7-19-2014
Today January 7, 2016...I note:
Sometimes although the world seems to be flinging itself apart....you feel GREAT! JOYOUS! HAPPY! ....and then you feel guilt. Because although you are sad for the people who are hurting, you still feel good too.
And then you write about you joy, or paint a representation of your emotions, or catch yourself singing a silly song....and feel doubly awful. How dare you be so happy at this time!
But, that is the way it is. You have too much joy to contain...it splashes out. Bubbling joy is messy. :)
And when the news every day is Bad, Bad, and More Bad...the joy inside of you just surges up anyways...you feel so inappropriate, even ashamed. Why?....I don't know really.
Even during tragic times - we need a little happiness. Hope really does spring eternal. If a volcano cannot contain its lava, and a mountain spring its water....why should we expect ourselves to successfully cap off our hopes and joy?
Anyways, when joy expands and explodes from within you -
you are no match....it is coming out if it has to rip a hole!
Perhaps a perspective change is warranted.....
People need to hear joy. Read joy. See joy.
Maybe they can draw a little of your joy like water from a well in the desert. Few complain of cool water in the desert.
Share your joy. Your well may never overcome the surrounding dryness....but it may supply for those who need a sip now and then. It may provide a brief rest for someone.
An oasis is a pleasant thing that is not overcome by its surroundings. Be an oasis, if you must. You cannot help it anyways.
Have a great day everyone. :)
And some joy.
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